Way back when I was a kid, I already have this sickness. I cannot do what I wanted to do, and I cannot go wherever I wanted to go, all of my actions have limitations. That feeling that every morning, when I saw a sunrise, I feel like I won a one million pieces of candies because I'm so lucky and happy because I’m still alive. Every day, I thank God and praying to Him that hoping I will never experience and feel this sickness again. But sad to say, it is not that easy, I’m still suffering of this weak heart.
Having a weak heart is very difficult, it is somewhat very controlling. Evidently, a weak heart simply means that the heart cannot function as effectively as it should. Since its function is to distribute blood throughout the body, a weak heart ultimately affects all organs in acquiring sufficient blood that is rich in oxygen and nutrients. What a sad reality, out of billions of people, I am one to those people who got this sickness. As a result, there are lots of things that I need to consider, and I don’t have any choice but to become dependent to my parents. I always need to get their permission when I wanted to do something that will makes me enjoy as a kid, but because of this, I did not enjoy my childhood days. What makes me cry right now is when I will remember those days that I had a hard time to breath, and I am sweating really hard then later on everything went black, and it took me an hour or sometimes an hours to wake up. Obviously, I cannot walk too long under the heat of the sun; I cannot work so hard or act that time, and I am not allowed to travel in a far places, I am that so lonely.
Additionally, aside from that, this was the most dangerous thing that I have experienced in my whole life, and this was the time when I and my father went to Calinan. We ride a motorcycle and that time is so very hot because of the heat of the sun, but I don’t mind it because I know that I am safe just in case something bad will happen to me because I am with my father. At first, I thought I am going to enjoy that moment, but sad to say I did not enjoy that day because out of the blue I cannot breathe properly and later on, I collapsed without any reason while still riding in a motorcycle. Everything went black, and when I woke up, I am already at the hospital. I saw a doctor checking on me and my father was beside me holding my hand. That time, I thought I cannot see a light again, I thought I am going to live in darkness forever without my family at my side, but I thank God, I still survived that day.
Today, I am still experiencing that sickness but not that bad or over same as before, and I am so very thankful because of that. Besides, I am so proud of myself because I survived the days that I think I couldn’t because my situation is not that really easy, every time I experience that one, I don’t have any senses, and that’s the reason why I felt that I am dying.
Furthermore, I already accept what is the situation that I have right now. I am still grateful because despite of everything, I’m still here, breathing and alive. God makes me stronger everyday, and positivity remains in me. Now, I am still here, complete, and already a strong and independent woman, working going to my dreams for my future and for my family. In these experiences, I found out that, if you will love your life, your life will love you back. This is the reason why Nolyn Jane G, Aragon remains standing despite of everything.
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